friends.

Sometimes it seems like I don't have any friends. :(

Nobody to back me up when I need them. Nobody to comfort me either when someone tries to backstab me or talk about me behind my back.

I remembered one time I got in a fight with a girl at PLKN, and best friends would go to my defense and harassed the girl behind my back. I was actually touched by that..and I'm not saying that its a good thing to do.

I just..feel lonely. I'm shy. I don't talk much in RL. But I do have a bad mouth..I say what I want to say without thinking first. I always get straight to the point or as people say it 'cakap tak ebr tapis'. I get annoyed easily...so I hate it when people as so many questions. I'm a nerd..I love to study and prefer studying over designing. I'm anti-social. I don't go outings or dates with boys or with boys AND girls. If theres boys involve in the outings, you'll never see me. I'm choosy when it comes to friends.

I have so many bad points. So I'm still wondering why would people ever want to be friends with me?

..probably no one really wants to. :(

I really want to change. To be someone more cheerful, friendly and carefree. I want to have more friends and I still want to keep my old ones. I know I haven't been the greatest, hopefully I'll make up it up and I promise I'll be a better friend in the future.

That. Is my real goal for 2010.