'If'

'If' is such a lonely word. 

'If' is such a cruel word.

'If' is such a depressing word.

I have been using the word a lot these days. Unintentionally? Intentionally? I don't know. All I know is I'm not suppose to because its making me feel exactly what the word really is. And I have this huge lump in my chest every time I use it.

I think... I think too much. You know when you get one piece of information, lets say A, and then you start to have 1000 questions about fact A. And all the questions begins with 'What if......'. Fact is, you know all these questions, even if they're answered, doesn't change a thing about A. A is still A.

See.. I think too much. I don't even know if all the above makes any sense to anyone.. even me.