A...B..mmm..C..but I want A!

Is it possible to want something so bad that you tend to shut down any other option you have (which might be the best option for now)?

Theres something I want so bad. And I my pros and cons list doesn't seem to take it's side. And I'm slowly thinking of shutting out plan B, C, D and so on so I can have it my way. I might be selfish, but its me who should decide what I want to do right? Right?

...B-but I don't think I'm brave enough. :(

Do you think its worth it to sacrifice a few years of my time as long as I get what I want?
...when I'm not really sure if plan A is even the best for me.

I need a counseling session with my friends. *sigh* I miss everybody.