what am i doing???

hey,

i've been wondering. what am i actually doing right now?
answer : lazying at home.
yeahh..while my friends are in their class right now.

actually..a while ago..i recieve uitm's degree offer. and i didn't accept it. thinking to myself..'maybe its a waste of time to enter uitm when u're going to aus next year in feb'. then again, i mean now, my heart it toki doki. did i make the right decision? i'm now putting my luck on the mara loan. if i recieve the loan i can go to aus..if i don't hmm..i have to work for a year then only i can enter uitm or try asking for the loan again..which is a complete waste of time.
i mean..working for a year? am i kidding myself? do i really want to work? NO. yeah..i'm too lazy.

and what exactly i'm doing at home right now? lazying myself in front of the comp and tv while being pampered by mom n dad...waiting for the results from mara. huh. what if i don't get loan?? that worries me sooo much. if theres a positive answer to my application then yokatta..if not.. i've wasted half a year on my couch. someone please asure me that i made a right decision. please...

coz i've been thingking for a whole week..what my friends are doing now? who is teaching them design? what is their project? do they have new studio mates? are they having fun? huwahhhhhh!!!